Poems

Some just reflect what you feel...

Alone

I am alone,
so very alone

I hurt,
so very bad

I am ignored,
just thrown aside

I am security,
for others to have

I am lonely,
there is no one close,
no one sees the pain

I am alone,
and no one knows

4give and 4get?

Is it possible to forgive someone for a mistake that was unintentional?

Sometimes I feel it's something that can be talked about and settled through the right mode of communication but then again to some people it might mean otherwise.

I know it's not easy to forgive or forget, I hope deep inside there isn't going to be a grudge against me.

So I'm saying sorry to everyone who I've well....made angry in any possible way. I seek forgiveness. For there if there was anything I could do to make up for all the sorrow or pain, I would do it without a doubt.

....eternal friend....

when the skies go black and the clouds bring rain

when the ghosts of the past seem to bring you pain

when friends talk seems like a bombshell to you

just think of a friend forever true

Before Sunset

Andy's Movie-O-Meter : 8/10

I managed to finish this show after falling asleep twice before. But only because I was too tired to stay awake, the show didn't bore me. Although it might bore some people. It's actually a beautiful show, it reminds me of those special moments in time of my life. Especially with the person you loved.

If you want to watch something different for a change and also see what it's like to have romance work out in real life. Watch this.

X-Men Last Stand

Andy's Movie-O-Meter : 8/10

Well it's suppose to be the last show for the movies. I loved the special effects. All the characters were involved this time and new villans were intoduced. Over all the show was good, the only thing about making a comic book into a movie, especially X-Men is that it's hard to make a good ending when there are so many different types of X-Men who evolved into something else in the future. But let's not go too much into the details of that.

I liked it.

another rear end....collission

Proton vs Perodua

3:50pm
While I was just rolling the car to a stop for a traffic light just in front of Turf Club along Scotland Road I was rear ended by a Proton Wira! I was like...damn, not again. So I got down and talked to the other guy who was rather nice, he apologized and all. After assessing the damage we moved to the side of the road so we didn't block other motorist.

Also after taking down the details and deciding what to do, which was to make a police report and all so he can claim the repairs from the insurance. After the incident I had to make my way to Gurney Plaza to meet up with Andrew to watch X-Men 2.

6:00pm
Arrived at Dato Kramat Police HQ to make my report. I've got to say that I wasan't really impressed by the system they had there. But the officers are friendly compared to the ones in Balik Pulau. But people are people, they have their own moods. After completing my report I was redirected to meet a Sargent upstairs but he wasan't in the office!

So since he wasan't there I went outside when I met the guy who rear ended me. He was told to come back at this time to take photos of his car. Lucky thing the camera guy was around and he took photos of both our cars. Guess I'll have to come back tomorrow to talk to the Sargent.

FTS Round 2 Photos

Autocross - FTS Round 2 Kg. Gajah

The day started :

3:30am
Met up with the gang and planned our convoy trip to Kg Gajah. Then I noticed I miscalculated the petrol in my gas tank. Oops. So I made a stop in Bukit Merah for a quick splash and dash.

I must say that driving in a group is fun. I love the saftey challenge it has. Plus we get to play with our walkie talkies.

5:40am
Arrived in Sg Perak. We decided to take a break from the drive for a drink and some snacks.

6:00am
Made a move and headed for the next quick stop at Simpang Pulai exit. Then more driving through kampung roads where we saw a pack of bulls crossing the road, woha that isn't something you see everday.

7:00am
Finally arrived. The track is located at such a remote area I wouldn't have a clue how to get there if I drove alone!

9:00am - 4:00pm
Free Practice started and we all took the chance to run around the track trying out the plotted course.

See the results in the photo above.

5:00pm
Boon, Xarrax and Me decided to leave early, we didn't bother to wait for the prize giving. I kinda hated the journey cause it takes so long to get to the highway!

8:00pm
I think we arrived in Penang around this time. I was dead tired. Took a shower and ate McD for supper and went to bed maybe around 11pm.

Dr Phil's Test

Your total score is 56

Interpretation of Results
Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

Happy Belated Birthday Blog!

March 9th 2006

Happy happy belated birthday blog!

I was going through my old posts and just realized that my blog is already 1 year old.

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Love, Lies and Trust + confusion?

How does someone define trust? How would you trust someone?

Anyone could say something and not mean it. Look around and tell me how many people are truly Honest! I'm know what's going through your mind "Yea but Andy...." before you continue forward, yes everyone tells lies from time to time. But those are just small things, like keeping a secret for a surprise birthday party and all that. I call that casual lying.

But what about love? Does love strengthen the trust between 2 people? Casual lying would definitely occur in any relationship. Like arguments, definitely something that is indeed included in the L.O.V.E business. Like I said casual lying is ok, but lying to someone you supposedly love about where you are going and where you will be is just, to me, unacceptable. Especially if that someone has a date with someone else! I makes me mad sometimes seeing that happen and not being able to do anything about it. But it ain't my life, I wouldn't want to intervene or be involved in that situation. It also makes me curious, to wonder what that person is thinking at that moment? If you love someone so much, would you give up everything to get another person to love you? If they already have problems, can't they work it out? Now I'm starting the "IF" and "What IF" questioning. These 2 words in a question is very very subjective, "what if I did that would it have made a difference?". "What if i said that? what would happen?" and it goes on.

Then there is going to be confusion where it messes with your head and jumbles your thoughts. Unconsciously it drives you mad with thinking about everything! But 10% percent of the time it would make sense the other 90% wanders off and does ALOT of thinking.

So what is LOVE? Learning On Exprience Virtually? LoL. My mind wanders off into the distance trying to figure out what is it that truly makes that someone special. Definitions and what becomes of all those feeling that you would have for someone. Now I'm talking gibberish.

It is all but a dream away....all.....in....a.....dream.

Mission Impossible 3

Andy's Movie Rating : 9/10

Loved the action, suspense and drama. Well balanced movie this time from the director. Bravo!

INXS - Afterglow

Here I am, lost in the light of the moon that comes through my window
Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you and the roses

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way when I see your eyes
Now I'm living in your afterglow

Here I am, lost in the ashes of time, but who wants tomorrow?
In between the longing to hold you again
I'm caught in your shadow, I'm losing control
My mind drifts away, we only have today

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way
I will sacrifice 'til the blinding day when I see your eyes
Now I'm living in your afterglow

When the faith has gone as I let you go, as I let you go

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way, I will sacrifice
Now I'm living in your afterglow

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you who is closest

something to ponder

Your Inner Child Is Sad

You're a very sensitive soul. You haven't grown that thick skin that most adults have. Easily hurt, you tend to retreat to your comfort zone. You don't let many people in - unless you've trusted them for a long time.

How Is Your Inner Child?

of blogging and music

I've got to agree that blogging seems to be fun. Although it's not necessary to share your crap to the world but it's still fun! It also make you think what is so intresting in your own life today? If you haven't done something different, I suggest you do and live life to the fullest.

Although I admit I have been at home most of the time for the past 2-3 weeks. There isn't much to do anymore where I am. Maybe a change of scenery would be good for me, I haven't tried backpacking before.

Oh yea and by the way it's now Sunday 7th May 2006 @ 1:12pm and I'm in the office working!Darn the person who forgot his shift! Grrr....but ain't I dedicated? I wonder if someone stops and says.."wow that guy is really dedicated." Sheet.

Music, music and more music. I've loved music since I was a kid, been listening to all sorts of music geners. Alternative, metal, jazz, blues, chinese, indo rock and so on. When I was in High School I learnt of a band called Nirvana, band members, Kurt Cobain, Krist Novoselic & Dave Grohl. Then I listened to all their albums for 5 years almost non stop. In the car, in my room, on the computer. The band changed music history for rock and punk rock in the alternative category.

Lately i smacked my head with my hand and said "Why didn't you learn Chinese last time?!" and I am a little dissapointed with myself for not learning Mandarin. Been listening to Wang Lee Hom & Jeff Chang alot. I'm just hooked to the music and chorus of these singers. But there's more, I found out that Indonesian Rock music is nice too. Peterpan, Sheila On 7 & Man Bai, they seem to have mesmerized me with their lyrics.

But that's what music does to anyone. It can make you happy, sad & angry, it all depends on the choice of music. Makes you think about what could have been and what should have been sometimes.

..life moves on..

...a thought on the past....

It's nearly 2 weeks since i Blogged. Wasn't really feeling like bloggin for a while. Cleaning up some things and straightening.

Why do people miss what they had? Is it because knowing that they can't get it again? Is it because it's just feels empty like hole or a gap? But most of all it's more of the guilt and pain that sweeps you over like a wave which can just make you feel down. Dead down.

What is it that makes us hold on to the past so much? I guess it's just something that is just hard to let go unless you free yourself from what you want so much.

Moving forward.........it's all about Choice.