Weekend Overtime

Here I am in the office staring at the monitor with my fingers typing my thoughts now......click a ti clack.

I'm so sick of this, working on a Saturday is bad. It's quieter and I do agree it isn't as hectic as a normal working day, but it's just not worth my time working Overtime on a weekend. Oh well my weekend started off yesterday by meeting up with Alex and having a chat with some of his friends. Sat down and chat about some interesting business opportunities. Left around 2am, went home and slept for 3 hours and here I am. Working on a weekend.

Too bad it comes with the job, rotational shifts come with the job, badddd. Anyone's biological clock would be screwed up. I was sitting down yesterday staring at the celing and was wondering about my life in the future. I began to hate the normal 9-5 jobs. I don't want to work for someone else anymore. Everyone would like that hmm? ;) Am still pondering and waiting for the right time to move on with my life. Take the next step in preparing for my future. I've got the support from my family and close friends.

Life can be so complicated sometimes. But that's something that we actually have control of, our own decisions can change what the future holds for us. Hurt, Pain, Joy, Laughter, Sadness, Happiness etc. I don't like to see my friends getting hurt from what I do. Sometimes I worry too much about what other people think about me, but that's just me.

Ah...Well I've started reading a novel by Nicholas Sparks - The Guardian

Thanks to cutie pie Melissa for introducing this Writer to me, I just love the way writes. Interesting books. I would recommend him to anyone who is interested in just reading a nice novel. Some of his books have been turned into Movies, like A Walk To Remember with actress Mandy Moore. Planning to watch that when I get the DVD.

There are a few books that I would love to sit and read all day. But life is calling out to me. It's not the time to sit and read books yet.

I miss my Aunt and Uncle who lives in London. I miss talking to my Uncle Terry who has so much to say, all his stories are interesting and my Aunt Bee Lee who is such a lovely person to be around with. If everything goes as planned I will come visit you guys soon. I hope.

12:36pm, still have 1 hour and 30 minutes before I finish up here in the office. *Sigh*

"It's Better to burn out, than to fade away" - Kurt Cobain

Tha' Weekend Is Here!

Slow week. It's been and up and down week, being a little sick and finally taking my first Medical Leave since i started in my company 1 year ago.

Heck it's Friday! Gota round up some people and go clubbin'! The usual gang isn't up for it this week. Everyone seems to have left Andy all by himself again. Maybe I should just pack my bags and head to KL for more action. Sigh, oh keep dreamin' Andy and don't be silly. Arrrgg...the weekend is a little spoilt when I think about working tomorrow from 6am till 2pm. But the night is still young after 2pm and partying can wait.

No plans....just be spontanious.

Listening to an old Metallica cd, from the Black Album, this song reminded me of what I am going through now.



Nothing Else Matters

So close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are

and nothing else matters
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say

trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I knowYE-YEAH!!!

so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
no nothing else matters

Dedicate to my Baby.

Chocolate Cake, on the house!

All in the Family.

Happy Birthday!

This is how you dissect a dessert.

Edwin, Aunt Bee J

Dad, Mum, Julia

Mum's Birthday

Happy Birthday Mum!!!

Went for a birthday dinner tonight to celebrate. Had buffett dinner at Evergreen Laurel Hotel. Had a blast eating the variety of sea food. Espically the clam shell dish. MMmmmmMmm.

I love you Mum.

Plain Wednesday

This quote actually made me think of all my friends,

Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.

I'm lucky to have such nice friends around me today. Thanks Everyone.

BZ Day

Been a busy day at work. Things to do, reports to analyze. But it all come down to doing the same thing every single day. I know there are bigger opportunities out there. But I just feel stuck. I want something different, a change. Something to live for, something worth risking for.

But it's always the small things in life we take for granted. The little things that people do that makes the day extra special. It makes you smile when you think about it.

Anyways I found out that a friend Ween Nee is married. Wow, I mean...she's my age and she's married. LoL, just thinking about marriage makes me wonder...about myself. Keke. Oh well, that's life for ya Andy.

Arrrgghh..It's so boring here. I'm planning to go on vacation, by myself or with someone special (that would be nice) hehe. New York, Florida, Toronto, Tokyo, London,. *Dreamy* Gets me wondering about life outside of Malaysia...Penang.

Hope to go somewhere by the end of the year. Anywhere!



Cheers!

smooth weekend

Saturday
It's was Melissa's birthday!



Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Melissa,
Happy Birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Had dinner at a japanese restraunt called Kampaci at Equatorial Hotel. Michele, Gary, Gene, Vince, Azmy and Me were all there to celebrate her birthday dinner. Dinner started a little late around 8:15pm, the food was excellent. They had fresh oysters & fresh salmon fish which was the 2 main dishes everyone was chewing down. Of all things i forgot to bring on that special day, I had to forget the Digital Camera! :( Sorry Everyone!

Andy's Restraunt Rating = 8/10

After dinner was party time! Went to Glo to get crunk and jiggy with it! LoL. Had loads of fun especially when I has chosen to impersonate an F1 car on stage. Well it was worth it, for a Bottle of Wodka worth about RM250. LoL. Again, no camera!! ARRGGHH!!

Sunday
Took a trip to Perangin Mall to look for some DVD's. Had cutie MeL as company. Did a little window shopping and later went home to rest. Weather yesterday was humid because of rain showers.

Peace!

It's Tha' Weekend

Yay! Here comes the weekend. Got some plans for the weekend. I do hope they go through as planned.

Anyways these past few days I feld under the weather. So I decided to rest at home and meditate. Lol.

Feeling much much better now after taking all sorts of medication. But overall this whole week was a good one. Not that much stress.

Happy Weekend!

Hump Day

Part of a Linkin Park song "Easier To Run"

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Flashbacks of my past. All the pain and regret.

Good Monday

Well it's Monday again!

At least the calls are good. Lower calls than expected. Overall a good Monday to start off the week.

Got back from KL yesterday, had to fly back since last minute bookings for a bus were full. Latest bus was toooo late, so the only choice was to fly.

Saturday
Left Penang around 5:30am. Arrived in KL around 10am, slow drive down. Celica was making noise and also giving some vibrations on the way down. Went down with Cutie MeL (thanks for the company gurl!). After doing some stuff and dropping the car at YSKhong Motorsports I had to borrow a car. Thanks to Xarrax for loaning me his car for the weekend, owe you one.

Stayed in Swiss Inn at Chinatown. Parking is a nightmare and the rates RM3.50 per hour. When I went out the charges were RM21, jeez!. The hotel was OK, cheap..RM98 per night with no Window. Good place for backpackers.

Sunday
Did more stuff and went to KLCC for lunch. Left for the airport around 4pm. Our flight home was delayed from 6:15pm till 7:15pm. It was raining when we arrived at the airport.

Slight turbulence in the air. Was a lovely sight out the window final minutes of Sunset above the clouds. Lovely. The view i had was simply lovely :).

*Mu@kss*

...free your mind...(M0rPhEus)

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it's like waking up from a dream...
everything is a blur to me...
where am i?...

as i look around, i noticed that i am in a room...a white room.

behind me there are 2 cosy chairs with a TV...i walked closer to the chair and as i approached the chair there was someone sitting there, all of a sudden the lights went out and the room became dark. A voice said..."Finally, you're here. Please sit Andy." a light guided me where i needed to sit. I moved and sat on the other chair opposing the mysterious figure, i couldn't make out his face, it's still too dark...as i was about to utter some words, it spoke again..."Do you know why you're here?".."No" i replied. Again it replied "Hmmm...you're only here because you want to". All of a sudden, the lights came on, a glaring spark of white from the room nearly blinded me. I slowly opened my eyes as they adjust to the light.

That mysterious figure was standing near the TV, a figure of a guy. Finally, movement..he turned around. I was shocked to finally see who it was, as i would have never thought it would be......me. He smiled, "Suprised? You sure look like that". He moved closer to me and said "Enjoy the show". He then handed me a remote control, i continued to press the play button on the remote.

It showed me clips of my past....people who treated me badly. Friends that i have lost touch with. Things that i have done to hurt others. Risky actions that i have done. Feeling with tears that have fallen. Happy times and sad times. Finally, me lying on the bed staring into space. Alone.

"You have brought youself here. Asking the same questions over and over again. Only you know the answer and the choice is yours to make." I knew these questions. But there are no answers to them.

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Lol...i'm just bored folks...thanks for reading.

How time flies

It funny, when you're complaining about this and that about life time seems to slow down, one second feels like a day, one hour feels like a whole week. We'd keep saying to ourselves, when is this day going to be over?. But when you're not paying attention to time and you're actually enjoying whatever you're doing time seems to zip by so fast. Oh well, that's how the world works, it's best to cherish the good times cause they end at the blink of an eye. Bad times however will haunt you anytime & anywhere without warning.

Ah, it's been a pretty good week so far. I know I'll cherish all the good times and moments like I usually do. It's weird how some people treat or take advantage of other people's feelings. Oh well.........we're only human.

Staring into space, I was wondering. Why this?, why that?, what if this?, what if that? Answers that I didn't bother trying to answer myself.

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Movie Day

Andy's Movie-O-Meter : 5/10 

MONDAY BLUES!!!

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATEEEEEEEEEEE MONDAYS!!!!

Been a while...

Phew, it's the weekend already. Tons of work at the office, have been given alot more things to do than just the basic job function. Also been hanging out with the gang a little more this week. Watching movies and going for drinks.

Ahh...today is a relaxing day. Just trying to let loose all the pressure of work and complications of living. LoL. Sometimes my mind would just stop and think about other stuff...like what the future holds for me...but these questions can only be answered by the actions I take now. How will I survive the challenges and obstacles that will come my way as I speed down this road called "My Destiny"? The only answer that I can think of now is, to take one challenge and/or one obstacle at a time. Solving the that would be the biggest challenge of them all.

I love my family, I love my friends, but I don't feel like I love myself enough. I want to provide that feeling of security and satisfaction to everyone, but I lack in certain aspects. "No one is perfect, Andy. If you can't love yourself you can't love anyone else" my inner voice tells me. LOL!! Thinking about my life now as it is, I'm happy. Looking back at the bad times, I have no regrets anymore, no more tears. I feel stronger, much much stronger. A quote from the new Batman Begins Movie "Why do we fall? So that we might better learn to pick ourselves up." I have a lot more to learn about life, one can only learn from watching and listening.

That's just a certain thought that flashes through my mind at random.

Peace!